Friday, September 30, 2005
haha, long time nv update le hor.. i listen to my dear sis and update den =P hey~ next wk is big exams liao.. jia you wor!! i'll be behind u all the way!! =D
hohoho~ i collected my zhen ming tian nu OST on wed, so happy neh!! now is to wait for their drama to be shown on channelU!! i got the nice nice poster, but cant put in my rm leh, sadx... wad a waste man~
nowadays i feel kinda confused.. my mood changes very fast.. lucky it's not obvious in sch, cos i can still control.. at home jiu no way liao~ i kept shouting to vent my frustration i guess? lucky it doesnt affect anyone cos no one is at home.. phew~
haiz, after going through so many papers, it jus spells trouble.. nth is right man.. i wun go for the first 3 months liao.. must get ready to find a job during the 3 months liao.. anyone haf any lobang?? haha..
hehe, today i succeeded in tying my hair without clips.. accomplishment man! but it jus marks the beggining the days where i need to tie hair liao.. >.<>
travelled... 10:12 PM
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Monday, September 26, 2005
haiz, lessons are starting again >.<>
today mr ang nv come.. YAY!! =P but mr tay come and take over la.. he went through with us the physics paper1.. i got 10+ mistakes out of 30+ questions lor.. tt's alot man!! ahh~ mr tay very on man! he couldnt finish going through 40questions in 1hour, haha..
ahh~ i tot no EFL = end sch early.. but is changed to JC talk instead.. win liao lor~ wednesday i cannot fly to j8 and collect my album.. boohoo~
hehe, ytd went to watch opera.. tt's funny hor? my teacher told me to go one... we students onli need to pay $10 when the original price i $108!! my teacher said tt it's worth it cos so cheap, den we dun haf much opportunities to watch this kind of theatre performance.. quite true la, so ex, of cos cant reali watch lor.. i wana watch phantom of the opera leh!! anyway, the opera's stage effects and props not bad la.. but soemtimes a bit boring, feel like slping, haha.. lucky the haf chinese and english words so tt we know wad they are singing.. after the whole thing, still haf autograph session nia, haha.. it's quite an eye-opening experience..
ahh~ my twin sis is maligning me for beat her till she become panda.. >.<>
travelled... 10:15 PM
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
woo!! today (or should i say ytd?? now is 12+am le... haha) is last day of prelim!! yay~ went to eat BK brekfast with kat, hehe.. nice!! =D den i went swimming with cat, haha... *2 different pp hor* i got abit darker!! haha... but not reali obvious la...
well, after tt, i went for dance.. wah~ o many mths nv stretch le.. im so much "harder"..so many new steps to learn, i blur liao... no stamina leh... i cant imagine life after Os.. school and lkdt sure had intensive training lor =S it's kinda funny.. still performing for sch even though we graduated, haha... damn tired now... Zzzz
haha, xiaoella waited for me since morning wor~ poor her... must haf missed me lots, haha... hohoho~ we're twins!! after i'm born, she's stuck inside "mama's body" for another 2hours before coming out. haha, poor mother...
travelled... 12:49 AM
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
today's physics paper is soo difficult.. to put it in another way, is jus tt i'm plain stupid to do it... is like the qn need to think alot lor.. suddenly one horseshoe magnet come out.. scare me... everything i studied is kinda useless.. i cant do half the paper lor.. i nearly cried during the paper.. is so pek cek tt i onli can do bout half the paper and there are sooooooo many blanks... keep skipping questions. haiz, another depressing paper.. now i know y pp hate science subjects so much... and now i know y pp hate physics sooooooooo much..
walked home today... it's nice~ the weather is cool.. except when i was at the market, the sun suddenly came out, so hot!! i spent bout $10 today on food cos i was trying to cheer myself up.. actually i'm not sad cos of physics paper... physics paper alone is not enough to haf such a big impact.. it's like the whole prelim, every paper is gonna be lousy.. i feel so helpless... anyway, bought lots of choc, cos choc is supposed to make one person happy, haha... i bought 3 kinder buenos, 1 cadbury peppermint choc, and mcDonalds for my lunch.. my stupid market onli haf Macs... actually it's a long time ever since i ate macs, haha... cos i always avoid macs =X after watching a clip on ella acting as jay, den i'm ok, cos she's reali damn funny, ahha.. she acted till very jay man!
haiz.. take back results tt time sure die one... can prepare to bang the wall.. seriously, im such a disappointment.. since young, papa and mama nv ever gave me pressure b4.. even if i fail or sth, they didnt say anything.. the most is my mum saying: eee, so disgusting! even when im glued to the computer during prelims, she oso didnt do much, onli asked me whether i've finished studying or not... it's been ages since the last time i saw mama smile for my results, i reali miss tt... the older i become, the more i make her worry, im such a failure.. im reali grateful to the freedom they gave me, but yet i didnt do anything to make them proud of me.. i'm simply useless. i didnt cherish the trust they haf in me to haf self-discipline. haiz, i dun think i can go JC le.. i deserved it all.. i reap wad i sow...
travelled... 1:14 PM
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Friday, September 16, 2005
woo~ first half of prelims is finally over~!! =D next wk de load is so much lighter man.. but then, everyday de paper is sucky man!
well, ytd, thursday, haf geog paper 2 and chinese paper 2... siao la, so damn stressed lor!! sure flung both papers de.. duno wad happened to me recently.. i onli studied bout 3chapters for physical geog onli... den others jus browse through.. den i nv even touch human geog tb at all.. for chinese, i onli studied bout 3 chapters and den no more... i think i'm mad... i've never study so little for tests and exams b4 man.. i'm mad..
den when i'm doing geog, i leaned against the wall and do, haha.. i've alr sort of giving up.. first hour i did very slowly, and i onli finished 1qn... den for the rest 1h15min i suddenly decided not to gif up so readily so i rushed the 3 qn.. so many blanks... >.<
chinese is so damn difficult man! i counted tt i lost AT LEAST 40marks le.. all i want is to pass, not to score for chinese le... haiz, tt's so demoralising..
today's chem is killer.. tt's all i can say x_X
travelled... 8:29 PM
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Sunday, September 11, 2005
someone help me!! AHHHHHHHHHH~ feel so stressed man!! tml is prelim le.. and first day jiu english compo and Amath 1.. siao la, where got pp put AM for first day de? ='( im dying... english is all along my weakest subject lor... and it's on the first day!! im super duper afraid of compo man!
ok, forget bout prelims now.. today is 11/09/05.. wad's so special bout this day?? today is the 4th annivesary of 911 incident and it's also the 4th annivesary of SHE since their first album!! woo~ 4 yrs old le wor.. actually it's quite short nia, but the impression they gave is like they've already been in the circle for donkey yrs, haha.. abit exaggerated??
hm, i wana say sorry to Twinkle (my dog!!)... cos she wanted to play with me (or rather, is wanted me to play with her) and i ignored her.. well, i'm in the midst of studying.. she saw tt i haf no reaction when she took the ball, so she changed to her stuff toy hippo instead.. her innocent eyes can jus melt u right on the spot man! i'm so tempted to play with her nia... and now she's slping quietly by my side, so sweet of her.. she's always there to accompany me whenever i'm alone... if i'm in the rm, she'll stay outside the rm and wait for me to come out.. it's also the same when i go to the toilet, haha... dogs are really man's best friends..
travelled... 9:41 PM
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Saturday, September 10, 2005
whee~ i've changed my blogskin~ i took quite a long time man!! >.<>
hm, today jus heard SHE's new song... although it's onli for 30seconds, but im quite excited, haha.. it's called XING GUANG *star light* anyway, i've alr updated the pictures, haha... it's under LINKS.. i've also changed the song to XING GUANG le... enjoy =D
travelled... 10:34 PM
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Friday, September 09, 2005
hm... it's jus a few days away fr prelim and i dun seem to be prepared for any subject at all, haiz...
i'm wondering if my C personality is becoming stronger again... it seems to haf disappeared for some time and now it's coming back again. is it a gd or bad thing?? *shrugs*
am i being more cold-blooded?? it seems to me tt after tt event, i cant seem to tear as much le. am i numb or sth?? if it is, hope it's jus temporary.. ytd i was watching the dragon show on ch8... the white dragon haf to kill one horn dragon... a person killing his own fren!! isn't it jus very sad? if it's in the past, i'm most probably crying like hell le... but yet no matter how sad i felt, my eyes onli got SLIGHTLY wet and nth le... wad's happening to me??
travelled... 9:51 AM
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Sunday, September 04, 2005
sometimes i reali hate myself man.. why can't i jus do it? i see her cry, my heart's pain, i reali reali want to comfort her but yet i can't... how i wish to hug her tightly and gif her warmth, and console her... but yet my muscles jus isnt moving an inch. it's always like tt, my body does not like to listen to my brain.. it's jus paralysed or sth.. useless is jus the word to describe me..
sad until there's no tears... ever tried b4?? well, i got the experience today... i'm sooo sad and yet nth is coming out fr my eyes.. i suddenly felt so blank and "feeling-less" the next moment, and jus no tears is produced for tt half hour i guess...
life... wad's life? is it all predestinied or it can be changed? it's jus so contradicting.. sometimes, i reali believe tt it's all predestinied somehow, but i know u can change the outcome by doing sth.. jus like studying, where u may not be a toilet cleaner in the future if u work hard now...
actually i tot of this qn for quite some time, and my conclusion is...
the future is alr paved out for u le.. but it still can be changed by you yourself! so overall, if u dun continue working hard or u dun continue to be lz, u can actually change ur destiny... hm, sounds right??
travelled... 10:32 PM
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aloha~ long time nv come online le...
haiz, kinda sad tt kelly didnt win, but am glad tt she got the univeral music contract, hehe =D jia you wor!!
i read a few days ago de LIAN HE WAN BAO, where they reported on the finals... someone commented tt they should jus judge based on singing ONLY and ignore those WU TAI MEI LI... oh well, this is SUPERSTAR competition lor, not singing competition..
gd voice = superstar?? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
anyway, y should they change the criteria JUST for weilian?? this isn't fair anymore! u say it's unfair for weilian now, but by changing the criteria, it's unfair to EVERYONE lor..
travelled... 10:25 PM
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